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I love Raman. I guess I cannot help but be biased towards him.
I heard that yet again, today, despite romi literally saying everything we as the viewers have been doing for a while, that he seems to have no remorse.
He says to mani, I'm the most angry about what Ishita did, but I can't see her like this.
So we are made to see he is still, despite romi and Ishita both literally screaming the facts to him, his inability to register it.
But I have a different take, as always it seems. Or maybe this is just how I want Raman to be actually feeling. The bias in me always wants to have a different take, and to be fair, I think everything I've said does have merit to a degree.
In my opinion, the minute Raman accepts he was at fault, Ishita has the upper hand and she has the power in their relationship. So she may never come back to him.
The minute he admits, that he was at fault, Ishita has the ability to reject him all over again. But if he isn't at fault, then somehow, if he says Ishita, come back, then she just will.
It's not like he cannot hear what everyone says. And that he himself doesn't think it. If we look back to when he drinks himself into oblivion, and calls himself a loser in front of Adi, that's proof enough that he knows he hand to play in the mess that their lives have now become.
During the first phase of the show, Raman had this remarkably witty way of hiding the fact he was falling hopelessly in love with his wife. This hardened, brutal Raman cannot rely on humor, so he does instead on anger, and pointing the finger at everyone else to hide everything.
I think he's actually ridden with guilt now especially. There is no way in hell he can see Ishita shatter into pieces, repeating his very words, and not feel the weight of the world crush him. There is just no way.
But look at their relationship now. They love one another. But they don't think the other reciprocates. I stick by what I said, Raman protests to hate Ishita, blame Ishita, but I think he still loves her madly. And this continuing habit of putting blinders on, and blaming Ishita, is a way to somehow keep the possibility of the, reconciling alive somewhere in his heart, despite how illogical that now is after he sat down to marry Shagun.
This hope is illogical, but somehow kept alive if Ishita is at fault. Because if he asks the one to obliterate their lives, why the hell would she come back.
Raman has always been petrified of how powerless being in love with Ishita makes him. And I think he's trying to get the best of both worlds while their lives are being thrown into utter chaos. This way there s hope of her love, but Raman is in power.
Now that Ishita is moving back in, Raman's resolve will start to break. He's going to start feeling powerless all over again. And so yet again the cute arguments, and silly antics will be the buffer yet again. And all the while he will become more and more powerless to the love of his life. And Ishita won't even know it.
As we see them in proximity, Raman's guilt, will, I think rear its head. But not yet. Not when he's determined to keep the power. But Ishita, just by being herself, will once again break this resolve. She'll make him powerless all over again.
Which he is terrified of, especially now that she is apparently marrying mani.
Because Raman loves Ishita.
But Raman is petrified of this.
Because Ishita has been the only woman, to ever render Raman Kumar Bhalla, powerless
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