new arshi FF: the first love of khushi - Page 21

after leaving the house of khushi , Arnav does not go right away at home he drives his car for hours in thinking at that time he spent with her he knows now that he loves her and he does not want she distant from him. he don't understand why he don't want that this love go further, his fear is in his heart but it does unable to reach for confront he does not understand this fear which asks him to stay away from the girl who he loves but at the same time he feels the envy to see and touch her, he never touched lavanya for love he has never kissed her he felt no envy just a feeling that she is the person with whom he wants to be and don't worry if he loses he does not feel a love for her, why he lets khushi believe that he is in love with this girl, why he lets her believe in a feeling that don't exist in his heart he thinks about the first kiss he shared with khushi and he is happy he doesn't regret he can't forget the sound of her voice saying "Don't come near me, don't touch me "ringing in his ear but he is not convinced he believes he will be able to stay away he agreed but something told him that he will not keep his promise, night is fell Arnav comes late at home everyone is already sleeping he joined his room and continued to think in this history

after a night of reflection Arnav takes no decision and he does not want to think to take as long as things don't advance he chose to live this life which is imposed to him carries a love in his heart see that love every day touching if the opportunity presented to him and continue with lavanya, with whom he hopes to forget this feeling he is not able to accept or let go or prevent himself to feel a desires. Arnav gets up to go to work Anjali is already down prepare breakfast she sees her brother and calls him

-: Chote !! Come sit and take your breakfast with me

-: good morning di- you slept well

-: well Chote but I did not stop thinking about khushi !! last night you came home very late !! are you gone to talk to her

-: Yes di- I spoke to her and she comes back today she does not go in lucknow. I did not want to wake up you last night to tell you

-: it is true chote? she does not leave and she returns to work? how you did to convince her

Arnav does not respond to this question he did not know what to say he avoided the discussion and said

-: I'm late di- !! I have to go to work

at the door of his house and before leaving he find in front of him khushi who returned to resume her work he look at her a moment and remembered that she asked him not to approach or touch her, but he did not hear her saying don't talk to me so he said good morning to her gave her a smile backs away two steps for let her get in, she looks at him said hello not smile and advance to the living room did a hidden smile and meet Anjali

-: good morning Anjaliji !! Excuse me the other day when you came in my house I left you out disappointed I was not well

-: good morning khushi !! approaches I am very happy that chote was able to convince you

-: I came back for you Anjali ji I thought for our friendship you told me that we was friend

-: it's Not chote who brought you back? ( Anjali said that, looking at her with a smile to see her reaction) is not his charm who made you change your mind?

Anjali is direct she said openly what she thinks she knows khushi has a low face up to Arnav and it made her realize that she is aware of everything but this remark bored khushi who said with dificult to find words

-: Euh what? no Anjaliji you are wrong (khushi said avoiding gaze) I told you I came back for you I thought of you and our friendship

-: The most important is that you're back no matter how

the days pass and khushi goes daily in Raizada's house she appreciate every moment she spends with her friend Anjali happy to see her every morning and be close to arnav even if she asked him to stay away from her, she loves him and That's enough her to smell his perfume when she enters the house that he leaves before leaving. her days she passes by meet the needs of Anjali between prepare her tea massaging her foot and accompany with her outputs she even got into the habit to know every member of the family and helps naniji who began to love khushi and consider her as a member of her family, during this time Arnav spends hours in his office he returned at noon for lunch allowing him to see khushi but as he promised he did 'not approach her, even if he has a very strong desire to put her against him and enjoy a few seconds in hearing the breathing of her desire, but he abstains and he benefits anyway for a few minutes watching her pretty face which he finds nice and innocent and carries with him in the evening when he returned to his work

in the middle of all these needs and these desires hidden that Arnav shares with khushi Anjali is concerned for the wedding of her brother she didn't stopped to seek the person he needs and she think khushi is the perfect person she has a feeling that something is trying to settle in the heart of her brother toward khushi she imagines that this thing is already in the heart of khushi during these days she noticed the looks from one to the other confident of what she discovered she asks her brother while she is with him one evening under a clear sky and full of stars

-: Chote told me !! have you thought about your marriage?

-: My marriage? what do you mean? I never said I wanted to get married

-: You promised to nani you will think about your marriage and I think it's time to do something

-: Di- I have a lot of work I don't have time to think about it

-: You will not have time or you don't want? chote !! I'm your sister tell me who's the girl about whom you think? and with whom you want to marry

the girl who thinks Arnav is khushi when his sister asked him if there's a girl his mind takes him to her face which does not leave him but he does not admit he is not ready thinking to make her his wife he is afraid to be too nearly to her he said

-: what You mean di-?

-: I mean if you're in love with a girl and your heart beats when you see her who will lead you to the wedding

Arnav avoided the gaze of his sister he rises from his place made a few steps and responds to her

-: No di- I'm not in love with any girl I already told you I don't have time for that

-: And when you have time? nani want to marry you now if you say nothing about your future wife she will find for you one, which you are not even in love

-: Di- !! even if I was in love with a girl it will not be that girl who I marry (tone of voice to Arnav changes muffled bass he continuous) I love her di- but I never marry with her she will never be a part of my life I will never let her be close to me I can't live with her I don't want suffer

Anjali hears that voice she hears the pain of her brother she wants to know what he has she has never seen him like this Arnav was never in love he did not think feel that feeling he did not think to this fear which comes to settle in his heart suddenly, and since he loved khushi. Anjali afraid for him she is afraid that he takes the wrong decision and regrets it later. She approaches him puts her hand on his shoulder asked him to turn around and told him

-: Chote !! what happens to you suddenly, why are you talking like that? I felt a fear in your voice who is she ? what are you hiding?

Arnav did not realized that he was speaking aloud, he has revealed his secret to his sister, annoyed avoids her gaze and said

-: No nobody di- nothing !! please leaves me alone

Suddenly Arnav includes his fear he understood why he does not want to make khushi a part of his life, he understood why when he sees her he wants to put her against him ,forget all his sorrows and his phobias, these phobias which prevents him to go further with her he knew it in his heart but now he saw the reality in front of him the words he said to his sister made him realize that he is in front of a big challenge he does not want to face he chose to lead his life of before that he had started with lavanya the girl he does not loved he decided if he will marry it will be with her because this relationship does not scare him this feeling that does not exist does not disturbs him and he believes he made his resolve