NEVER LET YOU GO.:
PART-15
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soon sanyukta dozed off on his shoulders and as it was a long night, randhir was too tierd, he too slipped into kip unknowingly... But soon he woke up with a soft palm caressing and tapping his cheek!
"huh..! Umm..."
"utto we have a lot to know" she smiled
"hmm...!" he stretched his arms "if this is the way you wake me up, i don't mind sleeping all the day" he mumbled sheepishly
"uh.! Have you said any thing?" sanyukta frowned
"kuch nehin!" he shook his head side ways grinning.
"umm! Okay... Then let's continue" she shrugged opening the book again.
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13th Nov 1997
Couple of days passed and still my anger hadn't abated. Why should she say that? Be it for fun, but what was the need to bring him in middle?? I knew she doesn't knew anything about my confrontations with kabir. But still my heart refused to accept the fact. She had been apologizing all the day and night for past 2 days and i was avoiding her stupidly! I don't know what my problem was! 2 days! 48 hours! 48 hours of our silence, rather say my silence had killed her. Her eyes were swollen, because of incessant tear flow, her face lost the charm. For the past 2 days i didn't spot her at the mess even. I guess she should have skipped her meals too..!
"what the hell vardhaan! What do you want??? Are you taking your venge? She doesn't even know anything!" my heart scowled as i stood at the railing on the terrace at night, all alone. It's been 3 days that i talked to her and that day she hadn't shown up! Not even to the class! And that's it!!! Her absence... I don't know how hard my silence Had killed her, but her absence had stabbed every speck of my heart, killing me from inside... I, then realised! What was more hard for me!! And how stupid i was, i stood there till 12 in the midnight expecting her to show up at any time but she didn't and thus i climbed down the steps desperately making plans on how to ask her apologies the next day.
14th Nov 1997
it was 6 in the morning when i woke up and i rushed to the terrace and as expected she stood there...staring at the sky, lost. She was smiling desperately as tears down her cheeks... I neared her feeling jittery and mumbled her name out.
"what?" she faced me staring into my eyes straight
"woh..." i stammered
"whaattt...!?" she raised her brows, her eyes, swollen and blood red caught my sight.
"i..." words stuck in my throat.
"what is that mr.suryavanshi? Speak out"
"i am sorry. I don't mean to hurt you! I was really enraged and... and... I... Uh... Umm..! Sorry!"
"oh! So, you are sorry? Right?" she crossed her arms and was waiting for me to speak up, might be my silence had irritated her. After 2 minuites of fruitless wait she began to move...
"niharika wait" i grabbed her hand
"leave me mr.vardhaan suryavanshi" she frowned freeing her hand
"oh! Please niha. Stop killing me!!" i pleaded. She was silently staring in my eyes and i just couldn't with stand her gaze...
"say something niharika"
"you want me to speak?? Great! Well, did you get the clarity about the guy i am in love with??" she said,, her voice was trembling yet her stare was so stern. I felt ashamed cause her words were just indicating that how much my words did hurt her .it'd be really great if she forgives me for that. of course, even if she won't i was ready to be punished.
"niharika please do what ever you want, but please.. Please do talk to me!" i begged, "please niha, please i am begging you apologies. I am sorry niharika" i took her hands into mine, she averted her gaze as tears filled her eyes
"leave me alone" she said.
"Huh?"
"i said leave me alone" she cried and turned her back to leave. I just couldn't comprehend her words...
"leave me alone??" what does she mean!? Does she mean forever!? Does she want me to stop talking to her forever? I knew my words had hurt her. I knew i shouldn't have said that. But this punishment of her's was really unbearable for me...
"don't do this niharika! Don't do this" I punched my fist against the rusted railing to fight back my tears, an hour passed and the sun had shone completely, still i was standing there, i don't know what was that whirling in my mind but still somewhere deep down my heart i was sure, that she would come to me! and she did. I heard jingling sound of anklets rushing towards me and before i could turn back I felt someone hugging me tightly from behind!
"Niharika!" i placed my palm on her's
"i hate you vardhaan! I really hate you! Such an idiot you are! What've you done to me! I just couldn't even pretend like hating you! I hate you vardhaan! Truly" I gently released myself from her grip and turned to face her, she was sobbing, just like a kid!and her nose turned red. He tears had hurt me but her face... Aaah! How innocent she was! And how stupid i was, to hurt her.
"I am sorry niha" i cupped her face pressing my forehead against her's.
"i don't want your stupid sorries"
"then"
"i hate you!" she made a face, it made me smile.
"but i love you"
"i hate you," she iterated again
"i love you baby" i said caressing her cheeks
"don't you dare, calling me baby! i hate you, i hate you, i hate you, hate you, hate you, hate you" she began to hit my chest, crying like a kid..
"theek hai! Hate me, you know what, that girl, in computer science, she's really cute, she likes me too! Have you seen her? Come let me show you" i tried to make a swing in situation, but in turn i was awarded a tight slap(play fully though) across my face
"niharika" i widened my eyes with my hand plastered to my cheek
"don't you dare!" she pointed her finger at me.
"what have i done.. You are hating me so..." i paused...nah nah! She interrupted, with another tight slap.
"dumbo! can't you guess!" she hugged me tightly
"i am sorry niha i was really enraged that day"
"i shouldn't have said that." she cut my words short. a much needed silence occupied in the surroundings. Sometimes we don't need any words to soothe a wounded heart,.. It needs, just a hug. Isn't it? Hug! It's the emotional first aid, and where words fails, actions speak! and that's what had happened then! We did apologized silently, just with our embrace.
We were lost in her embrace, don't know till when, till the moment she made a shrill cry
"ouch..!" she backed to face me
"what happened" i frowned
"your beard" she made a puppy face rubbing her cheek... aww!! Her innocence again "ha ha! You want me to shave?" i asked her smiling...
"nope! You look good with it" she winked and hugged me again..
What ever that petty quarrel had strengthened our bond stronger than ever before...and it made me trust my relation with her! It made us sink irrevocable in love with eachother
"Thank you kabir" i said as i hugged her back.
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"awww! How cute..!" sanyukta literally jumped in her place whilst randhir was trying hard to suppress his giggles at her childish act.
"farzi calm down! This is not our bed room... Uh.. I mean Your bedroom." he corrected her own words. Sanyukta looked at him in surprise as he was stumbling on his words.
"what??" randhir asked stammering.
"Nothing!" sanyukta shook her head sideways smiling, randhir felt uncomfortable and decided to change the course instantly
"did you notice? I hate you matlaab i love you" randhir said without second thought, unknowingly. Sanyukta looked at him in shock. Their eyes met.and they felt even more awkward than before. Cause only they knew how they told one other that they hate each other a zillion number of times in past 4 years. Randhir lowered his gaze immediately...
"uh..! I... Mean.."
"shayad tum bhul gayi thi, they are lovers and we are born enemies. It makes difference" she stressed, pointing her finger at him.. He smiled desperately thinking about how stubborn they were! He knew they both had feelings for each other but was wondering what was making them stop to confess! What was that barrier to their feelings...
"oh, hello" sanyukta snapped her fingers to bring him back to world
"uh...umm! What next?"
"pata nehin..should read" sanyukta said flipping the pages hastily. She frowned as empty pages mocked at her.
"there's nothing in here randhir"
"what about 1998" he asked as she dropped the one they read till then and took 1998 diary into her hands..
"ye toh kali hai" she closed it instantly as there was nothing written in it too. "what about this one?" he asked taking the 1999 diary to his hands... But it was also empty and it made them restless, they felt like they lost the connection with the world they lived in till then
"i think we should search for the diaries of 2000, and 2001" randhir opined.
"but you said, they were useless" sanyukta said with sarcasm dripping her tone..
"uff! Okay... I agree.. But not now! Come let's search" he said making a move to stand...
"wait mr.mcp, i am not like you, i have brain! I brought them even when you thought they are useless" she smirked handing over those 2 diaries to him. Randhir silently took them and opened the diary of year 2000, as expected, something was scribbled in it. a smile of triumph crawled to their lips as the pages filled with ink caught their sight. and they began to read
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