
SWATI this ones for u ... hope this does justice to ur expectations
It was a celebration of being in love .. it was a celebration of the ultimate expression of undying love .. it was the celebration of togetherness .. it was the celebration of marriage ...
It was the Marriage Anniversary of Bala & Vandu ... Ishita's perfect man ... & did the perfect man err ... Yes he did .. he forgot their anniversary ... & who was there to help him .. it was RAMAN ... the knight in shining armor
Through the 2 days only 3 people were aware of the fact that Bala had forgotten the anniversary .. Bala, Raman & Ishita ... well no one else needed to know .. Bala the perfect man erred .. & whats more he was saved by RAMAN ... Ishita Bhalla .. concentrate on the clues your man dishes out .. he is desperate to be your knight in shining armor ..
Ab ke sajan Sawaan mein ..
Aag lagegi badan mein
Ghata barse gi magar tarse gi
Nazar mil na sakenge do man .. ek hi aangan mein
The season of rains ... a time when hearts itch to come closer .. a season for romance .. the wet rains the cold shower .. all alluding to the ultimate romance moment ...
Ishita & Raman .. in their room sharing a moment . she is tying his cravat .. they share a moment together .. her hands on his torso ... they look deep into each others eyes .. but reality is a noisy room outside full of their relatives .. Emotions churn .. they swell .. but are ebbed ... Cause even in a secluded room they could not find themselves alone ... They both carried their baggage there ..
They join the others .. each aware of the other .. it was a darkened room ... corners were strewn with people .. they moved to a corner together .. once again looking for a quiet niche ... when the lights came back on .. & the surprise was to be delivered ...
They had set to surprise but were surprised ... his past & her nemesis walked in tall ... waiting to rain on their parade ..
Do dilon ke beech khadi kitni deewarein
Kaise sunogi mein piya prem ki pukarein
Chori chupke se tum lakh karo jatan
Sajan mil na sakenge do man ek hi aangan mein
Truly the love story of Raman & Ishita have the most no. of people acting as villains .. Param, Shagun, Ashok, Suraj, Simmi .. phew thank god for Amma the cupid
But if u relate the above words with the love story what u get is amazing clarity .. there are so many people .. so much past .. so much unsaid between these two that how will they ever hear the others heart beat
Ishita first relates the Accident incident as her most "touching moment' .. lets pause here a moment ..lets go back to the episode ... who said this was not about romance ... she used the word .. TOUCHED MY HEART .. RAMAN .. all in one sentence ... surprisingly .. Raman was still quiet ... but bolta kya bechara .. biwi ne bolti band kar li thi ... the moment she says Raman touched my HEART .. Raman looks up at her ... she is still looking down ... but after a moment she looks up & looks directly in his eyes ... The words heart ... dil was being talked about now .. yes she could cloak it how much ever she wanted with "CARE" ... But this was romance ... a soft subtle romance ... it was her saying ... her heart had opened up ... & he was creeping in & making a place for himself there ...
Just earlier in the evening ... She had said .. "MEIN KHUSH HOON" ... the very question he had asked the first time he spoke about her past .. today she answered that unequivocally ... she told him she was HAPPY .. her heart was getting involved ... she was opening up to LOVE ...
BUT in between these 2 hearts lay a lot of thorns ... Shagun opens her cans of worms .. she speaks about a romantic moment she had shared with Raman .. not only does she speak about the gesture .. but she goes on to talk about a INTENSELY PRIVATE MOMENT BETWEEN A MAN & WIFE ...
Lets pause here ... while bala spoke about a kiss too .. he spoke about a moment when he first discovered that Vandu was his soul mate .. it was the moment they decided to marry ... while Shagun spoke about a moment which was a moment shared between a husband & wife ... a private moment .. where a man caresses his wife's body ... BUT to a woman for whom a MARRIAGE VOW was not sacred .. how could an intimate moment BE SACRED ...
Through the initial episodes we were shown 2 things in YHM one Shagun's belief that Raman was not over her .. we also as viewers felt Raman was not over Shagun ... & secondly .. Shagun always believed she was the lucky charm in Raman's life ... she & Raman both believed that ... Even when he hated her betrayal he alluded his success to her betrayal .. making her responsible for everything that happened to him ..
Tonite .. he really let go of his past ... He delivered a very BIG SLIGHT to Shagun.. he called her APSHAGUN .. the BAD LUCK Of his life ... if that narsiccitic woman could spare a moment .. she would realize .. how much SHE HAD NO AFFECT ON RAMAN ... the place of void which was his heart had now been filled .. his heart was now in the safe keeping of his doctor wife ...
Itne bade ghar mein nahi
Ek bhi jharoka
Kiss tarah hum denge bhala ..duniya ko dhoka
Raat bhar jagaeygi yeh mast mast pawan
Sajan mil na sakenge do man ek hi angan mein
A shattered Ishita lay there looking towards the floor .. trying desperately to ebb the flow of tears ... she was hurt .. she was wounded ... once again her insecurities came to the fore ... she was in her mind HALF A WOMAN .. she was unable to incite Passion in a man ... Her husband as recounted by that woman sitting in front of her was a deeply passionate person ... but where she was concerned .. yes he CARED ... but she was unable to INCITE PASSION in him .. a woman who was rejected by a man .. cause he did not consider her GOOD ENOUGH .. today her insecurities came tumbling to the fore .. once again her wounds were laid bare to bleed
In that room full of people .. they all felt embarrassed .. they all felt angry ... But no one could understand how mortally wounded she was ... what the BLOW of Shagun's actually did to ISHITA ... but then there is only one person who is capable of seeing so deep within Ishita ... her husband .. RAMAN ...
He uses the excuse of dropping Bala to take Ishita for a drive ... to take her away from bitter memories ... & oh well just to show her .. he to could romance ...
Or rather he was very romantic .. but he did not always express it ..
The rains lashing on their car they stop to take shelter .. when he asks her have u ever danced in the rains ...
Lets pause here for a moment ... what a ques .. Writers please take a hug on this ..
What is he asking her ...
One .. is this a moment u have shared with SUBBU? .. how subtly he brings a question of whether he is recreating a sad memory ... the man who wants to be THE MAN .. is wanting to give her a memory ... WHICH IS SOLELY THEIRS ...
Second ... have u ever realized what it takes to dance on the open roads in the rains ... well it means letting go of ur hang ups & inhibitions .. letting urself go .. So raman asked her ARE U READY TO LET URSELF GO ... ARE U READY TO LET UR INHIBITIONS LIE ASIDE ... R U READY TO EMBRACE "US"
Wasn't this the most superlative message wrapped in a simple ques .. have u ever danced in the rain ... ??
Tere mere pyaar ka yeh saal bura hoga
Jab bahar aayegi toh ..haal bura hoga
They step out in the rain .. & the first thing he does his HUGS HER to him ... there was no better way for him to communicate .. I AM THERE RIGHT BESIDE U .. I WONT LET U GO ... U TAKE PRIDE OF PLACE IN MY LIFE & HEART ...
& then the dance of Passion begins ... they let themselves truly go ..
The rain pelting on them .. the music throbbing in their veins .. he holds her from the back . caresses her waist .. keeps bringing her closer & closer to him ... Slowly sips from her shoulder ...
He gives complete reign to his passion .. & finally she is in the moment with him ... the passion is truly throbbing in her now as well .. whats more she is feeling alive ... She is feeling cherished .. she is feeling desire ...
They part .. & then he comes up to her .. looks deep into her eyes ... the rain pelting on them .. they are taken back to a moment ... when he first said I LOVE YOU to her ... it was a similar night . they were in the middle of a road .. that day to passions were on the rise .. passions of a different kind .. when he had whispered those words to her .. the silent communication ... alluding to that moment ... then he walks closer to her .. cups her face .. he looks into her eyes .. she is lost in his .. at that moment .. she became the FULL WOMAN .. she WAS ISHITA RAMAN BHALLA .. she was a WIFE . she was DESIRED .. SHE WAS COMPLETE ... SHE WAS ACCEPTED .. SHE WAS HIS ARDHANGANI ...
Pause here a moment ... Did u not think why Raman did not kiss her .. he clearly desired her .. she would not have minded it .. .this was a moment done for passion .. then why did he not complete the task ...
Cause tonite was not about PASSION AT ALL .. it was for HEALING ... & LETTING GO OF THE PAST .. Raman had just let go of his .. & today he made her let go of hers ... The WOMAN WHO DID NOT THINK SHE WAS A FULL WOMAN .. a girl who did not want to marry cause she felt she had nothing to offer a man .. a woman who thought she did not ATTRACT .. today .. all her inhibitions were laid to the way side ... today she FELT DESIRE .. today she KNEW DESIRE .. today she NEARLY TASTED DESIRE ...
But while they have taken these momentous first steps in love ... its still early days in their love lore ... this is the first moment of LOVE for them .. they have had intimacy . they have had desire .. but they have never had a moment of love ... & today ISHITA wanted to FEEL LOVED ... & FEEL CHERIsHED .. & FEEL DESIRED ... the only person who could see that was RAMAN .. her husband ... & he delivered that in spades
Now note the BG score .. & if u can please note when the words .. PAL PAL BADHE YEH HAI MOHABBATEIN comes on .. note the leads expressions at that time ...
He slowly releases her face & steps away from her .. he goes to his car .. rests his hands on the car his face bent .. trying to get his overflowing emotions under control ... she turns to face him .. he turns to face her .. they share a look & finally he smiles at her ... there was no hiding from this ... they were in that moment together .. THEY BOTH WANTED THE OTHER ...but she was not ready for this intimacy ... He acknowledges that .. his smile alluding to .. U CAN RUN BUT U CANT HIDE ANYMORE ... but but but .. PUTTAR .. biwi does not wish to hide .. hence she looked right back into ur eyes ...
YES she wanted this moment .. today she got her special moment ... a moment when after a long time in her life she felt >>>> WHOLE , DESIRED, ALIVE , LOVED & CHERISHED ... All thanx to THE MAN .. her husband .. mr. Khadoos no more ...
The next morning they rub balm to the others aching self ... while she rubs it she is mesmerized & stares at her hands rubbing his flesh ... He is mumbling .. & she says >>HO GAYA >.. truly ho gaya ... she is in love .. & all thanx to Param who nudged the thot in her ,, the man desperately trying to break these 2 apart .. actually pointed out the biggest thing to ISHITA .. how much she cared to be THE WOMAN in her man's life
They come to the breakfast table .. where she who is still in the euphoria & bliss of the night before blurts out .. she had her KUCH KUCH HOTA HAI moment last night .. she tries to hide her face .. but whats the use .. they lay totally exposed to each other last night . there was no need for barriers anymore ..
He stands up .. with a teasing smile on his face he tells her KEEP THIS BETWEEN THE 2 of us ... THIS WAS SACRED to them . this was their first moment of Love .. it was for them & them alone ...
PAsue here for a bit .. in my last post I had written how Raman was pissed about the fact that Ishita spoke to Mihika about his sensitive side .. a side reserved for Ishita alone ... a glimpse reserved for Ishita alone .. well lets add another thing to that list ... This moment .. this PASSIONATE ... this LOVING side of Raman's was only for ISHITA .. not something he would like to be with anyone ...
Kaant lagayaega yeh phoolon bhara chaman
Sajan mil na sakenge do man ek hi aangan mein
The precap .. it was interesting .. Sanjana blaming Raman for the break up of Mihir & his sisters relations ... Was she wrong .. while he not to be blamed .. but he was the cause of Mihir's break up with his sister ... right ?
PIC COURTESY : GANBARUNFAN
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