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Hi all,
i don't know if my post today, will make u feel better or not...just yest, when after the episode she called me, and after our talks and reading some posts in forum, i asked her, how much positivity we can show after today's episode? and then i remembered one of my own posts i have made , long back, i think in the start of Ben track... but while reading it, i had a feeling , the track is not exactly similar this time... something has changed... the thing is what...
anyway, like i said before, here r few things i would like to say, and i m posting few lines i had posted few months back... so here i m with my take :
love and trust. Two basic emotions btw Jalal and Jo... unspoken, understood but not accepted...
The very basic thing behind the emotion of love , was FEAR.
And the very basic thing behind the emotion of trust is EXPECTATION TO UNDERSTAND.
here one thing was made clear, Trust can be earned by ur sincerity, ur transparancy , truth, and good-heartedness. Both Jodha and Jalal were on the way to understand this. rather both have started to trust each other, but this trust is unspoken...
Love is in their hearts, they both know it , but the trust unspoken yet is stopping them from expressing their love... had the trust been talked openly btw them, this whole issue would not have been there...
Jalal is not able to tolerate seeing her with somebody else...he is not wrong... just when they had started to get close, just when he felt he has somebody to whom he can discuss his heart's feelings, he comes to know, she is not sharing everything with him... naturally he is feeling rejected.. this was his fear... Fear of rejection, fear of losing her... just that he names it as trust...
for the first time ever in his life, he has understood 'LOVE'... and he definitely wants it, and only from Jo... else there r so many of his begums, but he is not interested in them... he only wants her, her love, everything whatever she can give him...
just look at his face when Jo is with Rahim, showering all her love on the kid.. his pain and his desire for that love , is so evident on his face.. and just when he has understood his own feelings for her, just when he is happy that she too is relaxing in his company, just when Chishti Baba's prediction of their future with strong bond lof love, together, her secrecy has shattered him...
(friends, i m not taking Jallu's side... never i will, coz everybody here knows, i m very much Jo praiser, always and will always be like that only...)
still he is not ready to confront her... is it coz he fears , that one more time he will have to apologize if proved wrong? or is it coz he fears , that if she replies , and the answer is not something that he wants to hear, then , his new found heart and the feelings inside that heart will be killed forever and he will be back to being Jallad , he was earlier? does it mean, now, he himself doesn't want to become old Jalal? does it mean he has started liking the change in himself? and so naturally the person who has brought these changes, holds special place in that heart of him , and he is just taking care that nothing can replace that person...
Jo asked yest, is it responsibility of a woman to keep the trust intact? what else Jalal is doing right now? he is trying hard , that his trust on her is not broken... had it been anybody else in Jo's place, he would have killed her, the very first night he saw her with 'other man'... and same way he is expecting her to show her trust in him... we know she is bound by her promise but, then she should understand, that when he is asking her so many times, what she is trying to hide, it means he is suspecting something... if only, she could understand it, if only she could hold his hand once and say it openly, "there is a very big puzzle i m trying to solve Shehenshah, but right now , i m not in position to tell u anything, just that trust me, when i ll solve it, u ll be the first person to know it, just give me some time and ur silent support"... i m sure this will be enough for Jalal to reinstate the faith in her , he fears to lose...
and abt going to Ruku, then nobody can challenge the truth, that she is the one who has been with him for longest time... she may not understand his grief, but whenever he needs to lose himself , to forget his pain, she will be the one who will open her arms for him...may be for whatever reason, let it be for proving her right on him, but she will be there with him...
and Jo has yet to reach that place...
i know many will ask, she had the poison to save him, then how can he not trust her? i agree, she has earned his trust, but does that mean, she understand him? does she understands his pain, his loneliness? he is ready to support her, but will she understand it?
anyway, change of tracks : may be all of u r not happy that i m thinking abt Jalal.. but frankly i m not... but i don't want to bash him...
as shown in precap, the way he ignores her , and decides to go to Ruku, is it really to make her jealous, or is he trying to control himself , to avoid the confrontation with her which may lead to breaking their relationship?
and so from his POV the better option is ignore her than confront her...and now if Jo questions him for his ignorance, then this much avoided confrontation will take place, and rest we all know...
i don't know if my post today, will make u feel better or not...just yest, when after the episode she called me, and after our talks and reading some posts in forum, i asked her, how much positivity we can show after today's episode? and then i remembered one of my own posts i have made , long back, i think in the start of Ben track... but while reading it, i had a feeling , the track is not exactly similar this time... something has changed... the thing is what...
anyway, like i said before, here r few things i would like to say, and i m posting few lines i had posted few months back... so here i m with my take :
love and trust. Two basic emotions btw Jalal and Jo... unspoken, understood but not accepted...
The very basic thing behind the emotion of love , was FEAR.
And the very basic thing behind the emotion of trust is EXPECTATION TO UNDERSTAND.
here one thing was made clear, Trust can be earned by ur sincerity, ur transparancy , truth, and good-heartedness. Both Jodha and Jalal were on the way to understand this. rather both have started to trust each other, but this trust is unspoken...
Love is in their hearts, they both know it , but the trust unspoken yet is stopping them from expressing their love... had the trust been talked openly btw them, this whole issue would not have been there...
Jalal is not able to tolerate seeing her with somebody else...he is not wrong... just when they had started to get close, just when he felt he has somebody to whom he can discuss his heart's feelings, he comes to know, she is not sharing everything with him... naturally he is feeling rejected.. this was his fear... Fear of rejection, fear of losing her... just that he names it as trust...
for the first time ever in his life, he has understood 'LOVE'... and he definitely wants it, and only from Jo... else there r so many of his begums, but he is not interested in them... he only wants her, her love, everything whatever she can give him...
just look at his face when Jo is with Rahim, showering all her love on the kid.. his pain and his desire for that love , is so evident on his face.. and just when he has understood his own feelings for her, just when he is happy that she too is relaxing in his company, just when Chishti Baba's prediction of their future with strong bond lof love, together, her secrecy has shattered him...
(friends, i m not taking Jallu's side... never i will, coz everybody here knows, i m very much Jo praiser, always and will always be like that only...)
still he is not ready to confront her... is it coz he fears , that one more time he will have to apologize if proved wrong? or is it coz he fears , that if she replies , and the answer is not something that he wants to hear, then , his new found heart and the feelings inside that heart will be killed forever and he will be back to being Jallad , he was earlier? does it mean, now, he himself doesn't want to become old Jalal? does it mean he has started liking the change in himself? and so naturally the person who has brought these changes, holds special place in that heart of him , and he is just taking care that nothing can replace that person...
Jo asked yest, is it responsibility of a woman to keep the trust intact? what else Jalal is doing right now? he is trying hard , that his trust on her is not broken... had it been anybody else in Jo's place, he would have killed her, the very first night he saw her with 'other man'... and same way he is expecting her to show her trust in him... we know she is bound by her promise but, then she should understand, that when he is asking her so many times, what she is trying to hide, it means he is suspecting something... if only, she could understand it, if only she could hold his hand once and say it openly, "there is a very big puzzle i m trying to solve Shehenshah, but right now , i m not in position to tell u anything, just that trust me, when i ll solve it, u ll be the first person to know it, just give me some time and ur silent support"... i m sure this will be enough for Jalal to reinstate the faith in her , he fears to lose...
and abt going to Ruku, then nobody can challenge the truth, that she is the one who has been with him for longest time... she may not understand his grief, but whenever he needs to lose himself , to forget his pain, she will be the one who will open her arms for him...may be for whatever reason, let it be for proving her right on him, but she will be there with him...
and Jo has yet to reach that place...
i know many will ask, she had the poison to save him, then how can he not trust her? i agree, she has earned his trust, but does that mean, she understand him? does she understands his pain, his loneliness? he is ready to support her, but will she understand it?
anyway, change of tracks : may be all of u r not happy that i m thinking abt Jalal.. but frankly i m not... but i don't want to bash him...
as shown in precap, the way he ignores her , and decides to go to Ruku, is it really to make her jealous, or is he trying to control himself , to avoid the confrontation with her which may lead to breaking their relationship?
and so from his POV the better option is ignore her than confront her...and now if Jo questions him for his ignorance, then this much avoided confrontation will take place, and rest we all know...
Yeh Fitoor Tera
Anupamaa
