The Proxy Mother
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I have to love them.
I have to shower them with
Detached affection,
Affection that can be
Bought in the market.
They are your child, not mine.
I am just being paid to
Take care of them.
If I can not love them,
Then I have to act as if
I love them, the acting should be
So real that they can not
Find out the difference.
If I can not act perfectly,
It is negligence of duty.
I am a slave of needs,
You have given me money to
Satisfy my needs;
I am indebted to you.
I have to perform this impossible task,
I can not betray you.
But I should never really love them.
If I do, they may love me
More than they love you.
We torture the person
We love the most.
You are real, you can endure
Their torture of love.
I am only a proxy,
If they love me,
How will I endure
Their torture of love?
I will be destroyed.
I can not risk that destruction,
I can not love them.
I have to live on the bank
Of the river of love,
Yet I will not be able to drink
A drop from it.
Is that a punishment
That you have given me?
Or is it a gift?
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