i am standing in front of a big hotel and seeing the bell boy bringing the luggage outside to the car parked in front of the gate. ruhan was standing beside me and watching his luggage being put into his car and i was looking at my feet. today is the day ruhan will be leaving and i will be left alone again. loneliness was my only friend for these two years but now... now im scared of being alone with that old friend of mine... this old friend of mine has started to bite me, kill me and give me immense pain every passing minute. love gives pain... its painful... its a curse... people had, and have been cursed love, and today i can understand what meant them curse love... love which the most beautiful thing created by love and experienced and lived by humans.
" so... "
ruhan said and i tried looking at him. for few seconds i felt really vulnerable and weak but then gathered myself up and look at him with a smile. i expected him to say anything stupid that would make me smile but he offered me his handerchief. i looked at the handerchief and then at him and then back at the handerchief. i slowly forwarded my hand to take the handerchief when my fingers touched his and i glued my eyes to the floor staring at my feet as if it was the most interesting thing in the world to do. but my actual reason of not looking at him him was the pool of tears accumulated in my eyes. i know the moment i will look into his eyes, these stupid tears will definitely roll down my cheek and i kept looking at the handerchief in my hand. looking at the handerchief made me realise that ruhan realized that im emotionally unstable right now and this small gesture of his touched my heart.
" ruhan... i..im not crying... "
i tried to sound as strong as possible. but he seemed to read my mind and he shook his head a little nodding in negative.
" aalu... i have to go... "
" no... dont go... "
i said in a very weak voice and a tear rolled down my cheek. his thumb touched my cheek lightly and he brushed the tear away. i looked at him and he closed his hand into a fist and enacted to be putting that tear drop into the pocket of his overcoat.
" its priceless aalu... dare you care for me or anyone as stupid as me... "
as a reflex action the corner of my lips curved upwards into a smile. i have read somewhere that one of the best moments in one's life is when they smile while having tears in their eyes and today i experienced it.
but soon that smile faded and i looked at ruhan thinking its time for goodbye. ruhan looked at me and slowly he held my wrist. and the next thing i realize is that im sitting in the passenger seat of his car and he putting the seat belt around me. ruhan sat in the car and looked at my face with a wide smile.
" i cant go... "
" why...??? "
ruhan asked me a simple question and i wondered why i cannot go anywhere from shimla. may be because it gave me anything when i didnt had anything. may be because shimla gave me resot when i had no place to go or even sleep at night.
" i... its my job..."
i tried to reason and looking at the expression on ruhan's face i thought i did it.
" you havent taken any holiday in the last 2 years... so you have tons of holidays... the paid one ofcourse..."
i sighed and i started looking for another excuse.
" i dont have my luggage... "
" we can buy it from delhi... relax aalu... " ruhan replied.
i leaned back in the car and closed my eyes accepting the fact thatim going to delhi with ruhan for some days. i would have zoned out but thanks to the loud songs playing in the car. " all thanks to you ruhan... " i thought and i slightly opened my eyes to say him something regarding the sound or the high volume... but i couldnt...i looked at the smile on his face and that was it. he has always bring a smile on my face, no matter what and now when im the reason for that smile, i will do anything possible for that smile to remain on his face.
i dont know when i dozed off and how come so quickly we reached delhi. right now we were standing in front of his house. for a moment, i hesitated but he placed his hand at the small of my back and lead me into the house. i looked around the house and no doubt it was beautiful... ruhan's mother has a very good taste and an interest in inetrior designer and this house is a proof of it.
" so this is your room... hope you enjoy your stay aalu... "
ruhan welcomed me warmly in the room and i smiled at him.
i looked around the room and admired it. it was so beautiful and elegant at the same time.
" you get fresh and see you at the dinner table... "
ruhan was about to leave the room when i held his hand and whispered a quick thank you.
" iss thank you ka badla main le ke rahunga... trust me... "
ruhan playfully said this and left the room.
i smiled at his playfulness and once again admired the room where i will be spending the time for the coming few days.
there was a queen sized bed in the center with curtains draped around the corners giving it a very royal look. the best part about the room was the full sized window just opposite te bed. i will sit there at night while listening to music and will enjoy the beauty of the nature, i thought. ohhh goddd... see im already planning out things... stop it aalu... ohhh nooo... not aalu... aaliya... stop it aaliya... i scolded myself.
i layed on the bed opening with arms wide and then after sometime hugged the pillow and closed my eyes relaxing myself. after two long years, i felt solace and secure... the feeling of being at home... the feeling of being in a secure environment... the feeling i have been missing... the feeling which i almost forgot... a single tear rolled down my cheek and i quickly wiped it and in my mind, again thanked ruhan for appearing in my life and bringing me out of the life i was living... the one with darkness and loneliness all around.
i got up and thought of having a quick shower. i took a shower and when i came out of teh bathroom i saw some night wear placed on the bed. there was one night suit, one night gown and one patiala salwar kameez on the bed. i felt blessed to have a friend like ruhan who cares for me soo much and again i was smiling. i got dressed in the patiala salwar kameez and made my way downstairs. i looked around the house to find ruhan and there i found him in the kitchen. i slowly entered the kitchen and saw him doing something.
" what are you doing...?? " i asked him.
" making pizza... " he replied cheerfully.
" you know how to cook... " i asked with amusement.
" im a great chef... you will get to know aalu... "
" okk... so how much time for the dinner chef...??? "
" just 10 minutes madam... " he replied.
" ohhh god... its sooo yummmyyy... " i couldnt help myself but praise him for the best pizza ever.
" thank you... thank you... " he replied.
" now you have to cook for me ruhan... "
" anytime... "
then again we got busy enjoying our pizza.
this was my first day in delhi and im surpringly lovin it. im loving my life now... but for how... i do have to return one day and then i will be alone again. it will be one depressing thing to think right now, so im not thinking about it anymore...
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