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TODAY'S DEDICATION : This one is for my very good friend and much talented
devilaonmoon devilu laru... its for you... u dedicate ur updates to me and this time i m doing it to you... 😉
i will reply to the comments soon... i didnt get the time to... and this time i will update soon... i promise... 😃
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Chapter 4
He walked in...
today's morning... ahh what a wonderful weather, it is...!!! nature... it seems to amaze me everytime i look at it. it soo beautiful and god is such an artist cum creater i tell you. i see creativity in everything he created - be it animals or humans ot plants. humans for example are designed with so complexity and emotions. emotions and feelings only make difficult i think, if u think im just saying it for the sake of saying, kindly check my previous record.
my feelings for zain brought me to this stage. i trusted him, loved him, adored him and at last what i ended up with. i screwed my own life for his sake. his happiness mattered to me more than anything and in this process, i ignored my happiness. he was my happiness, no matter what he did or said. just a look of his face would use to make up for all the lose. imagine how much i loved him, that i started talking like some writer, a heartbroken writer. yes i was heartbroken but that heartbreak was never capable for stiring my belief on love, its power and its beauty.
scientists say love is nothing but the production of some chemicals like adrenaline, dopamine and serotonin and they also say that it takes between 90 seconds and 4 minutes, to decide if you fancy someone. impossible... does love has an expiry date also...??? i think it does... it may be ends with the end of our life... but romantic novels say that love never dies... its eternal... god knows, what is love... i know only one thing that my world still revolves around zain like he is the focal point of my universe. i love him and thats what matters... i dont care if he loves me back or not... because him not loving me, will not make my feelings for him vanish. i will still love him until the day i die.
someone shook me and i found that mother was saying something. i felt guilty for not listening to what she was saying... i again zoned out. i asked her what she was saying but only after apologising to her. she smiled at me and told me that we need to bring some changes and try to improve the standard of education in the orphanage. the kids need to have a more proper and better environment which would make them strong enough to stand somewhere in this big competitive world. i agree to her and said that i will surely give my inputs on what to do and all. i felt proud of myself that mother shared this thing with me, me being the first one to know about this thought of her.
next few days passed and i came up with few suggestions but we are still looking for the best one to pop up. today is sunday and i decided to go out and enjoy the natural beauty of this ever o beautiful hil station. i always wanted to live in hilly areas and now i am. this is the best thing that has happened to me, obviously after zain. i was walking wrapping my shawl around myself, when i collided with something... rather i should say someone. i blamed the stone that made me stumble, and when i looked up to apologise, i realised that the pair of deep brown eyes looking at me, seemed... seemed familiar. i looked at the face of the person holding me in his arms, to find ruhan, my childhood friend.
" hii clumsy walker... " he flashed a smile at me.
i wanted to smile back at him but he called me a clumsy walker... which im definitely not.
" im not a clumsy walker... " i defended myself.
" i know you fat too much aalu... " he teased me and winked at me pulling me closer.
until he pulled me closer, i didnt realise that his arms were wrapped around me. i pushed me away and i was about to fall on the road when he again saved me. instantly i thanked him but in my mind... i cant say it to him... this will make him fly in the air and will brag about himself all day.
" your welcome... " he sarcastically said.
" im not going to thank you... " i told him.
" so where are we going for the date sweetheart...??? " ruhan asked me and i glared at him.
date... excuse me... we just met after years and he straightaway asks me where are we going for date, the date which he planned in his mind.
" im going for a stroll..." i said stepping away from him and started walking.
i knew he will follow me and he actually did. he started walking beside me and i couldnt help but smile. one fact that i forgot to mention is this that ruhan can make me smile in any situation... he never fails to bring a smile on my face... NEVER...
i wanted to smile back at him but he called me a clumsy walker... which im definitely not.
" im not a clumsy walker... " i defended myself.
" i know you fat too much aalu... " he teased me and winked at me pulling me closer.
until he pulled me closer, i didnt realise that his arms were wrapped around me. i pushed me away and i was about to fall on the road when he again saved me. instantly i thanked him but in my mind... i cant say it to him... this will make him fly in the air and will brag about himself all day.
" your welcome... " he sarcastically said.
" im not going to thank you... " i told him.
" so where are we going for the date sweetheart...??? " ruhan asked me and i glared at him.
date... excuse me... we just met after years and he straightaway asks me where are we going for date, the date which he planned in his mind.
" im going for a stroll..." i said stepping away from him and started walking.
i knew he will follow me and he actually did. he started walking beside me and i couldnt help but smile. one fact that i forgot to mention is this that ruhan can make me smile in any situation... he never fails to bring a smile on my face... NEVER...
that was our first meeting after years and today it has been three days since i met him. he did visit the orphanage and we played with the children and he did donate some money as well. ruhan and his family shifted to hyderabad, because it was their home town and ever since they shift, we started to grew apart but not literally. he is still my bestest friend and im still his "baby doll " as he used to call me in childhood. ruhan came and brought happiness back in my life. i cant remember when was the last time, i laughed this much. i was rounding on the floor laughing when he told me some of the incidents in his life - incidents as in when he approached a random girl in a disco and she happened to be one of the escorts present there.
" i think i will have to marry you aalu... " he said while enjoying the maggi i made.
" first dont call me aalu... second i dont want to marry you... third why in the world you want to marry me... " i asked him.
" because you cook the world's best maggi..." he said as if it was the most obvious thing in the world.
" haha... very funny... " i said trying to hide the way my lips curved into a smile.
" aalu is blushing... awww... "
" shut up ruhan... "
" aaliya im serious... "
ruhan kept the bowl of maggi on the center table and sat in front of me on the floor. he looked rather serious and it scared me. i knew he could make me smile but never di i knew he can scare me as well. i looked at him as if i saw a ghost and he leaned towards me. i gulped down the lump that just formed in the back of my throat and leaned backwards.
" ru.. ruhan... "
i managed to get words out of my mouth but i failed. yes i told him about my unsuccessful marriage but never did i told him that i am still in love with the man i married... i didnt tell him that i still love zain and there is still a magnetic pull that seemed to keep me attached to zain,
" hahaha... look at your face aalu... " he burst into laughter and then i realised that he was pulling my leg... no making fun of me...
" i hate you... you scared me... "
i slapped his arm and crossed my arms over my chest.
" you should have seen your face aaliya... it was priceless... " he said while laughing.
i made a face and then started laughing with him.
" first dont call me aalu... second i dont want to marry you... third why in the world you want to marry me... " i asked him.
" because you cook the world's best maggi..." he said as if it was the most obvious thing in the world.
" haha... very funny... " i said trying to hide the way my lips curved into a smile.
" aalu is blushing... awww... "
" shut up ruhan... "
" aaliya im serious... "
ruhan kept the bowl of maggi on the center table and sat in front of me on the floor. he looked rather serious and it scared me. i knew he could make me smile but never di i knew he can scare me as well. i looked at him as if i saw a ghost and he leaned towards me. i gulped down the lump that just formed in the back of my throat and leaned backwards.
" ru.. ruhan... "
i managed to get words out of my mouth but i failed. yes i told him about my unsuccessful marriage but never did i told him that i am still in love with the man i married... i didnt tell him that i still love zain and there is still a magnetic pull that seemed to keep me attached to zain,
" hahaha... look at your face aalu... " he burst into laughter and then i realised that he was pulling my leg... no making fun of me...
" i hate you... you scared me... "
i slapped his arm and crossed my arms over my chest.
" you should have seen your face aaliya... it was priceless... " he said while laughing.
i made a face and then started laughing with him.
ruhan was in shimla for some work... for recreation... he was bored and took his car on a long drive. who knew for him, long drive meant coming all the way from delhi to shimla... this guy i tell you. so at present he was staying in a hotel and i would visit him or sometimes he would visit me.
we nearly spend all the day together but he will be going back to delhi soon and i will be alone again. i even hate thinking about this right now. i dont want to be alone anymore... i dont want to be by myself... a need a friend to talk to, to go to movies, to have fun, to share my happiness and sadness. yes i want someone in my life now, but that doesnt mean that i dont love zain. he is the only man i ever loved in my whole life and he will be the only one for me. he is my soulmate and this is the truth... the truth of my life...
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