Chapter 1
So here goes.
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Words
A KriYansh OneShot
He punched the wall-wanting to understand,to somehow conjure up himself and his messed up feelings. He should've been happy. Satisfied-or if not anything else, atleast relieved that she was leaving. He wanted to mock-laugh at the irony of the situation-she'd said that she'd come back for them,for the college, and now she was leaving? Like she had done almost 2 years back? Breaking everyone once again-no, wait. Maybe not this time. Hardly anyone bothered about her. Not even him-right?
But then WHY, why the hell couldn't he stop thinking about what he'd heard a while back? Why could he not be glad? Kriya talking to her best friend,Swayam, telling him that she was planning to leave,because the deal with the investors from Chandigarh was finalised. They didn't need her anymore. She said she was happy that "Rey's dream" was getting fulfiled finally, and that she didn't want to bother him with anything related to her anymore.
A part of him wanted to laugh again- how could it NOT bother him? Hell, he couldn't even take his eyes off her during a dance, and she thinks that her absence, even though he was used to it by now, wouldn't bother him? Wow.He didn't know why he'd even bothered to listen to what Swayam and Kria were talking about, in the first place.Because he didn't care. He did not Want to care.
His phone rang and his thoughts cut out instantly. He reached out for his phone,wiped the sweat on his forehead, and picked up the call without bothering to see who it was.
"Rey?", said a man's voice he didn't recognise. Surprised, he pulled the phone from his ear, and his screen flashed Kria's name. Good Lord, he hadn't realised that he still had the number.
"Yes?", he said a bit unsure of the whole situation.
"Your friend here had an accident.A terribly major one, I fear.I was the first to reach her, and before she collapsed she was muttering your name. We're taking her to the City hospital.", the line went dead.
He stood frozen,unsure of how to react. Kria-accident-his name...it was all spinning in his head. He held the table behind himnext to stabilise himself.
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The next few minutes were passed in a daze. He couldn't think of anybody else but Swayam, and he was more shaken apparently than Rey himself felt. As they entered the hospital, his very first step made him feel uneasy. His throat suddenly had dried up, he felt he could choke up any moment- he could hardly feel the movement of his muscles.
Swayam was almost in tears- even before they'd reached. Rey didn't himself know what to feel. But the aching pull in his heart- had just made him drive like crazy, still in a daze, his forehead ceased with worry. He had hardly listened to Swayam muttering on the whole journey that he was responsible for whatever was happening.
When he saw her, his mind went blank for a moment or two. Even from the ICU door, she looked so fragile, so breakable, so-hurt, tied up in plasters, the oxygen mask covering her evershining smile,the wires looked like they were suffocating her. and him too. He wanted to leave- a part of his mind that had started working told him that he shouldn't be caring, but his whole body remained fixed,frozen at the ICU door. Watching her. He hadn't understood when his hand went up and rested on the glass door, as if reaching out to her. His heart felt heavym and his mind was now hammering.
He staggered back and sat on one of the steel seats made outside the ICU. The seat was cold, but he couldn't care less.
"Please,Doctor...atleast-", his thoughts cut out, as Swayam's edgy voice came nearer. He saw in silence, and in confusion, as the doctor and Swayam walked up,the latter almost frantic.
"Look.",the doctor said,standing in front of the ICU door,"She is serious-and needs to be operated soon as possible.I'm glad she's still alive yet, frankly.Because the accident was terrible. It was head on.She's lost a lot of blood already. She has to be operated on-but I cannot assure you of anything. You just...have to keep your hopes alive."
He gripped the cold sidebar of the seat, as if taking a hold on himself, and as soon as Swayam sat down beside him, he could not help but ask,"What happened?"
"Its all because of me. I shouldn't have called her when she was driving. It could wait. But I-why did I?", he banged his hand on the empty seat next to him.
"Swayam-"
"No Rey, don't. I don't love her okay? She's my Best Friend- if that was what you were going to say. But how do you expect me to react when I know that I'm responsible? I don't know if she's going to live through this. How do you- how will you know? You don't know anything. What she faced in these two years-you don't know why she went away. You don't know how she feels about you. you-", he stopped, his voice cracking.
Rey felt uneasy when he said,"Can I know?"
The shaking of Swayam's shoulders had ceased. He looked up at his other best friend, and asked, his eyes almost boring into his,"Do you really want to know?"
He hesistated. Fidgeting in his place, he wet his lips, "Only...Only if you want to tell me."
Swayam nodded slowly, and paused to look at Kria being taken away. Rey gazed at her intently, as if silently hoping that this was some kind of a terrible joke. His eyes followed her till she had completely disappered into the OT and the red bulb lit up, and then he looked away, blinking back the evident tears that had suddenly welled up.
He heard Swayam sigh beside him. Before he could turn, Swayam said,"Her mother had found out."
He turned now,"About what?"
"About you both.About your relationship. Her dancing. And then she gave her a choice."
Rey looked at him, gesturing him to go on. "That she had to choose between you and dance- and her mother."
Rey felt his insides crushing. She hadn't- she hadn't used him. She hadn't faked her feelings.
"But-but-", he stammered to find words,"Why couldn't she tell me? Why the harsh treatment?"
"Because she knew that you would not want her to go. She didn't know then that she'd ever come back. She loved her mother,Rey..and I think you know that way better than I do.You also know that her mother didn't like you. But, she didn't want YOUR life to stop. She wanted you to move on- and you wouldn't, knowning that she always...",he paused,"Had feelings for you."
If his heart wasn't already crushing down with guilt, it was now breaking. He felt like he could run in and apologise. Hold her hand.Tell her anything and everything he could.
"You know,I was sometimes jealous of you.", he heard Swayam chuckle beside him.
He looked at him perplexed. Swayam was the last person he hoped to be seen joking at such a situation.
Swayam patted his shoulder,"I mean, we were in contact for the last two years- Kria and I, but all we talked about was you. Rey this,Rey that. 'Swayam, Rey is happy na?' 'Swayam, he catches cold very soon.' 'Rey will not take his loss in dance in a good way.' It was like, she didn't have anyother topic to talk about.", he shook his head.
"She missed me", he muttered to himself, mentally having punched himself a thousand times uptil then.
Before anything else could be said, Rey saw the doctor hurrying out of the OT.Swayam was on his feet before he was, probably because he was having a hard time digesting what he'd heard.
"Doctor, is she-",Swayam began.
The doctor sighed. "She can make it, only if she tries. She almost got a haemorrhage in the head, but thats sorted for now. She is- mentally, not stable, than physically. Has this kind of thing happened before?"
Rey saw Swayam's face turn almost pale at the question, then slowly stabilising.
"Yes", his voice was strained,"She saw her mother die in an accident in front of her eyes."
Rey could not feel as is he could hear what the doctor or Swayam were saying. Kria's mother...He had shudders even thinking of the word. And she'd faced it. Goddamn alone. He felt guilter than ever, the guilt almost clogging his chest.
"...and now she is under observation. For the next 24 hours.We're shifting her to the ICU again. You can meet her. Maybe if she gets a little support, she might regain her strength to fight and gin conciousness. Then only can we say anything.",were the parting words of the doctor.
"Swayam?",he said, struggling to speak.
"Its not your fault,Rey.",his friend said gently, sitting beside him for a long wait.
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It had been a hour and a half since Kria had been brought back to the ICU. Swayam had already gone inside and done a good deal of talking,but there was no response. She was as still as a statue on the bed. His own hands and feet were getting cold. He wanted to go in-ofcourse he did. But what would he say? What would he do? What if he brokedown? His breathing got uneven whenever he thought of facing her. He hadn't yet faced his guilt-he was so ashamed of himself and yet somehow angry with her- with himself. He was getting more egdy and impatient by the second.
"Rey, do me a favour.", he heard Swayam speak.
He stood up. His feet felt numb after sitting for so long. "Yes?", was all he could manage out.
"Talk to her. She will sense you.", he said.
After what seemed like a long pause, Rey nodded.
He slowly opened the ICU door,as if careful not to break her sleep. The room was heavy with the smell of medicines, it suffocated him. But she lay there. Still. The machines beeped around him, and the wires were still entrapping her.Measuring each step, he walked towards her.
"Hi.",he said, when he was at a respectful distance. He cleared his throat."Its like-".he played wiyh his fingers. Okay, he could do this.
"I want you to be alright. Because I need answers. loads of them. You know how I hate to see you like this? You barely...look like the Kria Ghai I know you to be. You can't just prove yourself to be weak.Because you're not,okay? And I don't care about you-if that's what you're thinking. I Hate you-for not trusting me. I hate you because you didn't tell ME anything. I hate you because you let me insult you-hurt you. I hate you because-", he cut off after saying it in one breath. He couldn't find words again.
"I Hate you Kria Ghai.I hate you so much that you make me hate myself. I don't know why I didn't stop you. I'm an idiot.But you weren't,right? Then why didn't you try to tell me when I was ruthlessly insulting you? I hate you for doing this-I hate you becuase it hurts to say that I Still Love you like crazy. So come back. Whatever it takes to come back. Just...Come back.", his voice finally broke, and he sat down beside her, taking her hand now,"Please.",he whispered.
As if she'd heard him, the ECG machine beeped.
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The eyes were staring at him. Those brown eyes he'd fell in love with- those eyes that were waiting for him ever since she'd reopened them few hours ago- were asking him for answers.
Rey tightly clutched the flower bouquet close to himself. She blinked in silence, waiting. So she knew, that he knew.
As he opened his mouth to say something, his heart skipped a beat and his throat constricted up, giving him a weird shiver of hesistation and happiness down his spine.
She had lowered her eyes from his.
They didn't speak. He sat beside her again, gazed at her, wondering if he could put in words how he felt.
Wondering if he could ever have enough words to thank her for loving him more than he had ever loved himself.
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So, how was it? Sorry for the mistakes, if any...and I know I could've included more details about the accident, but this felt okay, so Yeah. And the ending was a bit abrupt...looks a lil rushed, but I hope you guys won't mind :P
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Love,
Maitree
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Comments (21)
Okay this was a marvellous piece and you are an amazing writerThe situation , the turmoil of emotions in rey was so awesomely descrbedAnd then the accident , ...the way you portrayed the his state was alluringThe way he still loved her but hated to admit it was a worth readAnd the best part, rey's state when he found out that kria was not at fault was worth applauding ! You described all of it damn perfectlyAnd the last scene was blissful , how she gained consiciousness in his presence and the feelings that his words conveyed ? Just wowI loved this ine esp - wondering if he could ever have enoughwordsto thank her for loving him more than he had ever loved himself.Keep writing , you are an awesome writer and pm me next time u write something
10 years ago
Ahhhmazing OS Maitree..Beautifully written.. Ending was perfectLuvd it a lotdo write more on KriYaansh
10 years ago
Well written OS Maitree! Good job on it.I absolutely loved the dialogues!
10 years ago
only one word from me beautiful...
10 years ago
Beautifully Written !! Loved how you narrated everything.Amazing one !!!
10 years ago
u knw what... this is one of the best OS i have ever read.. simply wow...each and every emotions was described so nicely...just loved it to the corekeep writing dear...u r an awsome writer...with lots of lovemoumita...
10 years ago
Superb 😎beautifully written
10 years ago
amazing OS dear... it was mind blowing...loved it totally...thnx fr d pm...
10 years ago
just 1 word wow... i m shedding tears nowi so so loved it...
10 years ago
Just 1 word...beautiful!!You described the emotions so perfectly...loved it!Do PM me 4 ur other works 😊
10 years ago